Can't Commit?

What is wrong with me? Seriously! It's like....I can't commit to anything. I rarely commit any challenge I join, I can't commit to study schedules, and I can't commit to this freaking blog! I LOVE to write. I write in my journal everyday. But for some reason, I just can't find the right PUSH that I need. I don't want to say that I'm not motivated. Because I truly want to do it. I want to share my thoughts, passions, tips, techniques, and progress with the world. I want to encourage others to embark on their own hair, fitness, and health journey. It's just something about commitments that I'm not good with. I can't even commit to making youtube videos smh. It's something I'm working on, I promise you. Maybe I should pray about it. Prayer always works!